Brian

A little update: I have a date this week. Let me just tell you how super excited I am. When was my last real date? I'm pretty positive it was in the Summer time. and I don't think it was ever really a "date" he bought me dinner. I'll tell you about him. 


Brian got home from his mission a while ago. He actually dated my friend for a while. She told me she had a feeling that I would marry him. Which was weird. I was used to people being like "No. He's my boyfriend. and since I dated him for two days in third grade, you can't even look at him or I'll tell everyone you broke the girl code and stole my boyfriend." You know. That conversation. But the conversation we had was more like, "Chelsy you and this boy would be great together! You're going to get married and have babies and it's all going to be because of meeeee!" so there's that. 


I don't even remember why we started hanging out... I think I got his number and we started texting and I decided to go for it because, heck. Who doesn't want to get married and have babies? So I went into it with the completely wrong mindset. I totally thought I was going to marry this guy. Like I legitimately started thinking to myself, I better start saving up for the wedding! or I can't eat that- I have to be skinny so I'll fit into the wedding dress. (I don't even have a wedding dress) It was a weird psychological thing that happened. 


He is a really great guy, and maybe, if I hadn't gone into it with that weird mindset, something could have happened, but I found myself getting upset. But not even upset. I just felt... complacent? Is that the right word? I started feeling like Well, I better get used to this. This is what it's going to be like when we get married. WHAT? I wasn't even dating the guy yet. haha it was ridiculous.


So now I guess I'll explain what happened with him. Like I said- super nice guy. He asked me to go to his soccer game which was great and I was totally excited about it. I went with him and watched him play and it was precious. That was when I decided that I could totally be his soccer wife. Trophy wife? What ever it is where they tote you around to their games and you watch adoringly from the sidelines. The only thing was, he was so quiet. and I don't mean he just didn't talk much. he didn't. but when he did, it was so quiet, I could barely hear him. and I'm already deaf as it is, so I super couldn't understand him. "What?" was a staple in our conversation.


We went and saw Zookeeper together. This was when it went from I'm going to marry him! To I'm going to marry him. Once again, we weren't even dating yet. we went to dinner after and then he came over to my house to play games. We ended up building "pictures" out of jenga blocks. Once again, precious. I was still super into him at this point. He was financially stable, not that that's the most important thing, but it certainly helps. He was quirky and amusing, but there was just something not clicking.


He asked me to hang out with him and his friends. We played kinnect and watched a movie. During the movie, I did all the right things. I sat really close to him, angled my body toward him and even made my hand available to him, but he didn't take the bait. And that's when I started to feel like eh.... I don't know. 


But we were getting married. So I had to give him another chance right? I left for New Hampshire for two weeks shortly after that. We stayed in touch. At one point, we were talking about soccer- he really likes soccer. He said he had been playing all weekend. I commented that it was healthy! he said "Yeah. It will help me work off my belly keg." Belly Keg? Is that a thing? I said, "Yeah I'm too lazy to work mine off." he said, "It suits you! :)" My fault for bringing it up. and that's nice that he thinks I'm great the way I am. But it suits you? haha okay what ev. so I said, "haha thanks. :P" He said, "Tis true!" Just keep shoving your foot in your mouth son. haha it was kind of cute though. I was in the car with Colleen and Catherine at the time and when I read it to them, we all died laughing. Maybe you had to be there. 


I found out that Joseph and the Amazing Technicolor Dream Coat was at the MAC and since he had never been to a musical, I insisted on taking him. I bought tickets and we went the weekend I got home.That was when I decided it wouldn't work out. We didn't have much in common, and the things we did have in common, we liked for different reasons. I don't know what it was really. I just decided that I couldn't marry him. So I broke off our engagement in my brain.


Surprisingly there was no awkward talk with him. I think he felt that we weren't really all that compatible as well because we just kind of stopped talking. We're still facebook friends. But there's basically no conversation. I'll always think of him as a super nice person that I had a really good time with, but we just weren't meant for each other. Which is totally fine. Oh yuck. I just had the urge to say "totes" Internet, what are you doing to me? Time to go to bed before I #stopusingthespacebar.